most of me has learned to deal with this alone-ness. the lack of physical proximity to people i'm comfortable with. the six weeks in england was to be my litmus test for a life far far away and i have to say, i was quite satisfied with how i came out at the end. however, i think it's because i knew i was leaving. and that, in a way, is the same way it is here. i know i'm leaving. so i can suck it up. and deal with not having friends around. but given a possibly infinite and unchartable time away from friends, i think i would revert back to my needy self. and as much as i'm starting to discover the innate joys of being by one's lonesome, admist one's own thoughts, the things keeping me sane are the computer. and basketball. but spending all day in front of the computer isn't quite conducive to the discovery of life purposes and other such grand things. and i'd rmuch rather be bludgeoned into boredom and forgetfullness. with lots of friends around.



i'm glad for email. i'm glad for AIM. i'm glad for blogger. but it makes anyone who isn't within driving distance the same farness away. whether it be one thousand miles or one million miles. electronic communication kind of makes you miss people less. and sometimes more. and i'm not sure which is better.