gaga talked a few weeks back about how she checks and re-checks her blogs over and over again. and i hate to admit it, but i do it too. alot. i'll re-read what i wrote and suddenly, glaring grammer errors and natural apostrophe disasters will leap out at me. and that type of guilt has staying power. so i end up changing tiny little details over and over again.



it's like video editing. even though something's only half a fraction of a wee bit off, i have to tinker with it. even though nobody outside of my own ego circle will notice. it's my small way of minimizing the casualties of carelessness and insufficient knowledge. i would like to pass all this off as perfectionism but i know it's not. it smacks of hidden insecurities. it borders on the pathetic. it's a dreary existence. my high school english teacher would be so proud.



as the first brave step towards ditching this time sucking habit, i'm gonna intentionally misspell a word and leave it here. for eternity. fcuk.