nothing yet something. so this is christmas break. it's been awhile since i've actually had a "break" squished in-between two periods of "work." i'd say since maybe sophmore year of college. this is because from then till now my entire life has been pretty much a break. but i am learning to cherish "days off from work." so what i am doing with this unique amount of time is savoring it. the days go by alternately too fast and too slow. i've been out of san diego for barely thirty hours and i feel as if i've been gone a lifetime. we came down from san jose today, after a funeral service for my cousin. the miracle of airplanes. able to transport you from the strangest feelings to the most comforting in mere hours. what is it about the holidays that begets tragedy?



so far on this break i've done nothing. and there is more nothing to come. another full week of it. i will try to milk every ounce of something out of all this nothing. i've already accomplished my goal for 2003. i coerced george into getting a tattoo with me. we both got a traditional virgo sign, mine on my wrist, hers on her back. we are now bonded forever, as if a shared womb wasn't enough. i also got an ohm on my elbow. why pay for just one tattoo when it's cheaper for two? the overall experience was unpainful, although george said it hurt "more than you said jon." but i think we are both happy with our permanence and our state of being in the universe.



and what to do when you receive cards, presents, and messages from others but have no significant reciprocity in sight? just say thanks i guess. there was once a time in my past when cards, presents and messages were a high priority in my life. but now i am poor. and although my time is not precious, it is squandered away foolishly. so thanks for the unexpected cards, presents and messages. in a shocking blow to my social life, hongshin gave me the warcraft expansion, which means i will soon see less real people than ever before. thanks man.



greg, caroline and louis are also out here. taking a vacation from the icy ice of new york to enter the icy ice of san diego. it has been freakishly cold out here. so much so that all i can show them is the inside of a heated house and the wonders of a blanket wrap. i wish i could say we've packed exciting things into every waking moment but keep it real, this is san diego. the only real exotic thing i've been able to offer in my few days as host is the serenity of the ninety nine cent fish taco. and jamba juice. if nothing else there is always jamba juice.



if you are at work right now. i feel for you. i really do.