om. to close your eyes and meditate. i always wondered what that might feel like. when i close my eyes, i sleep. so pretty much every time i've been exposed to meditation, i've fallen asleep. in my defense, i haven't attempted meditation all that much. maybe once or twice. my friend tried to get me to meditate over the phone but it's a little difficult to try to meditate while being guided electronically. but meditation really intrigues me. it's supposed to take your brain to a relaxed state, a focused state. i wonder where my brain is at normally and i feel like by meditating, like really meditating, i'll experience a mind state that i've never consciously been at before.



of course there are times when i feel extremely focused yet very relaxed and aware. do you ever get those times, when you start to look at a blank wall, and then everything suddenly kind of zooms out? and you feel like everything is so far physically away from you and that you are in a "zone"? that to me is comparable to meditation. but it's not an induced feeling, it just happens. what i want to know is, is what meditation does, how it works and what it can do for me.



i'm not trying it for the health benefits or for just wanting to try something i don't understand. i want to "do it" because it seems right. many of the eastern religions/philosophies that i read about talk about utlizing some form of meditation. and not that i want to be some clear minded guru, but i want to be able to take fifteen minutes out of my day to just relax and really charge up. not that i really need the relaxation but i think meditative relaxation is different than just chilling out. or so i would assume.



then again, meditation is supposed to reduce stress, increase focus and bring about harmony. but the thing is i naturally don't really stress much but i do need to focus, so maybe my efforts should be less concentrated on finding yet another way to relax. but if anyone has any experience with meditating, i want to hear them. now.