the wheels on the bus go round and round. how does one stay happy amidst uncertainty and cloudy futures? that's the question i get asked alot. i mean. my life is pretty much headed to nowhere and i'm pedaling really hard with no wheels attached. yet, i stay tremendously happy most of the time. ok. tremendously might be an overstatement. but happy. i'm solidly happy. people are going through tough times and having lots of issues and here i sit, gloriously procrastinating away. trying to muster up the motivation to write my silly two page paper and my list poem. both of which are due tomorrow. both of which would take about half an hour. but instead, i've squandered yet another day wandering around the house. from family room to kitchen. to upstairs. to the computer. to the bathroom. to the kitchen. to outside. to the couch. and back again. twelve hours ago i promised that i would sit down and do my stupid paper, slap down some words and put in line breaks to make poetry. but i haven't done any of the above. and yet i'm happy. if a bit hesitant about my ability to wake up tomorrow. wheeeeee!!!



this is either the beginning of a long night or a terribly short one. depends on if i lie down or not. i try to challenge my willpower and semi lie down on my bed, in hopes that my responsible side will kick in ten minutes later and i'll jump up with renewed vigor and finish my work. my procrastination dragon and responsibility knight fight epic battles nightly. right around one o'clock. guess which one loses every time? i think i need a bigger horse. or a bigger lance. whoa. those are bad connotations. i need a bigger knight. or a smaller dragon. yup. smaller dragon. i'll take one of those for five hundred.