"depression is rage turned inwards." that's what doctor melfi tells tony soprano during one of their sessions. i don't get it. depression is anger leashed? is depression hate for oneself? is depression the opposite of outwardly expressing your anger? does depression manifest as blows to your inner self? i have no idea. i don't get depressed, so this emotion/feeling has always escaped me. i'm familiar with sadness, i'm familiar with feeling bad, but i'm not familiar with depression. so any time i hear someone attempt to explain depression, i'm all ears. but i never understand it. is the task akin to describing colors to a blind man?

people tell me that it's therapeutic to get into an all out rager once in awhile. to yell and scream until your face turns red and your voice goes hoarse. and not at a sporting event, or other similar venue, where yelling and screaming are encouraged. so tell me, does yelling actually feel good? is it a release of some sort? would more people do it if it didn't make another person feel like shit?

weltschmerz
(1) mental depression or apathy caused by comparison of the actual state of the world with an ideal state
(2) a mood of sentimental sadness