i see dead people. why do we have this need to tell people things? when we do something that we're slightly embarassed about, or exhilirated about, or something impactful happens but needs to be kept on the down low, why can't we just sit tight with our own knowledge? why do we just have to tell at least one person? it's weird. maybe because if you do something and don't tell anyone, it seems less real? if you go to the grave with your secret it seems like it never happened?

is it related to how writing something down makes it far more permanent? and so sometimes you don't write things down because you're afraid that by putting thoughts to paper you'll immortalize a fleeting thought? but then we want the journal entry there to prove that this thing happened. because we want to think that everything that affects us should be recorded or noted, even if it's just by one confidant(e).

i, for one, need to tell people everything. not everyone needs to know, but i need to tell at least my brain trust. it's not even about wanting them to ask leading questions, or for the confession to lead to a conversation, but i just want someone to know. i tend to confide in people who have proven their ability to keep secrets, or to people who are so far removed from my normal social circle that nothing would ever boomerang back. but as a social circle opens up, does that compromise the barriers that you had so carefully constructed?

who would you rather have know all your secrets? one person who is really close to you, or many people who are distantly related and have no chance (or care) to call you on it?